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28 April 2011 @ 03:37 am

This must have been written more than one year ago

God, what are you doing to me!
You direct me one way, then you open some other door. now i'm superbly confused! haha
anyway I trust you 100%, please let your will be done in my life.

lotsa things have happened in these few months. I think I have grown quite a fair bit and I really must thank God for lotsa things.

1. A super christian boss. Lord thank you for showing me how I should lead my life through boss, and thank you for helping me stay close to you through boss as well.

2. winning safety starts with me. Thank you for affirming my talent.I know sometimes I'm too over confident and think I'm damn good when I'm not. But thank you for telling me that you have blessed me in this area. I also am bewildered at teh same time overjoyed for you giving me Creative Arts Ministry, Gkidz 40 days of Faith video, Color Tuesday, Ogilvy, Greed. Lord, I really don't understand why you're directing me so clearly in this aspect when it seems impossible that I'll get there. but I trust in youLord. I really want to go into media, but that is if you want me there.

3. friends.

4. getting into nyu. thanks God.and thanks for letting me get into smu as well.

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11 February 2010 @ 02:49 pm

Im going to start posting agaiN! wheepee!

today. hmm.
things are getting on fine, to my relief (:
heh! i'll tell you what im talking about in august :D
or if i get into enoguh trouble then soon :D xD

getting used to going to marine parade every day.
picked kang up from school, he's super cute haha! and he's really become guai-er as the days go by (: i'm just glad he doesnt hate me for being a nag hehe. i think he would really like his mum to nag him though. haii rest well aunty shirley, we're all praying SUPER HARD FOR YOU!!! YOU WILL SURVIVE KAE! YOUR HEART WILL BE RESTORED TO NORMAL IN JESUS NAME! i realized what's the difference between being a christian and not being one. when you're a christian, you tell your troubles to fellow christians, because you know that they know a God who can solve the problem. it's not gossiping, it's really asking for the best help one can ever get.

Lord do a miracle. it's way too early to say goodbye.
Lord there's a reason why it got so bad so fast right?
If i believe, there can be miracles.
God are you asking me to study medicine?? hahaha

O O O O O -> this is going to be something cool (:
------------ the next day -------------

went to youthnet dinner last night.
WAH THE FOOD WAS SUPER GOOD! didnt expect that from fortunATE
seriously , i'm super young still. I dont understand leh, I keep growing older, but Im always still the youngest in most groups that Im in.. so odd!
interesting dinner, Able (a 14month old baby) IS SUPER CUTE, and it's true BABIES LOVE PEEKABOO!
luckily i watched ellen and her peekaboo monologue xD I MADE HIM LAUGH YAYYY! i also made him poke me in the mouth and beat me in the eye, but that's alright xD babies dont ahve much strength thank goodness xD

ytd night was a good break. tuesday was mad. morning gyci, afternoon babysit kang, night tuition. and im so happy i have a good family: thanks suern, sally, pastor, pang, ruocheng, mow's grace for being so caring and bothering to ask for updates. TYall:D

doing safety starts with me with pern again. we're going to OWN YEAH BABY :D
pern's good at pressuring me so things will get done. YAY

oh yeah dinner last night
omg duilian is super hard. xD
saw lotsa familiar faces last night, faces that i've seen once in a while and faces that i recognize but have no recollectio of when how and where i met them xD
somehow i had this feeling that jerald would suddenly appear behind me, cos it always happens and yeah he did! haha haven't talked to him in a LONG LONG time. xD man i miss touchkidz days when everyone used to hang out together. priscilla abigail sarah samuel jerald ian perry joel johanna joellyn sharmaine ryan shenna aaron delphene alyssa. that gang, the gang when I was p6. then after that gkidz came along and slowly i drifted away. i think partly because i moved out of the tkidz cells.
wish i'd stayed closer to everyone though! :)

when I pray
it's saying I believe
God, you are the way

when I cry out
it's knowing He can save
oh God, won't you show your grace

there's only you left
no one else can save the day
all your creation put together
will never be as great

So I say a prayer
that's filled with faith
claiming victory that's on it's way
knowing I can't be overcome
when I put my God in charge
I pray and pray
I know He's listening
oh God oh God, please have mercy
I'm not wasting time I'm praying to the One
the most important One.

when I shout Amen
I'm declaring I agree
with God's plan, even though I'm hurting

when I kneel down
I've got nothing else to give
I need even breath to live

there's only you left
no one else can save the day
all your creation put together
will never be as great

So I say a prayer
that's filled with faith
claiming victory that's on it's way
knowing I can't be overcome
when I put my God in charge
I pray and pray
I know He's listening
oh God oh God, please have mercy
I'm not wasting time I'm praying to the One
the most important One.

God the doc says there's no more hope
God the teacher says there's no more chance
God the boss says there's no more use of me anymore
So I pray I PRAY

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01 November 2009 @ 12:34 am

it's almost A levels! omg! haha i did badly for prelims but oh well, it made me buck up (: hmm God seems to be pointing me somewhere, like i only attended one uni talk, i've got friends there.. hmm haha see how God works God i give you my life (: haha i really wonder if what i dreamt is just a dream.. oh we got through farewell assembly, people like it. YAY unlike most other things, music really needs to be liked by the audience, you can't create a song and say that public opinion is not important.

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24 August 2009 @ 10:28 pm

kae prelims are coming.
PRELIMS OMG
lotsa things have happened within these few days

1. Chinese results FREAKING A! :DDDDD THANK GOD
2. WSP went SUPER WELL omg i can't thank everyone for sending in their compliments, it's so nice :D (luckily no hate mail! XD)
3. Mr Chu just offered me this super good offer. i really don't wanna give it up

haha i know who doesn't like me la, but hey you can't please everyone, unless you're quek xin er or ong yan han.
so i don't really care, as long as my conscience is clear, and i've tried my best.
i realized that i don't give my full commitment to everything i commit to. i give my full commitment to everything i BELIEVE in.
like if i don't think something has potential, i won't work on it. which is what happens right? hence a lot of times I ban4 tu2 er2 fei4, cos i just don't see the thing working

haha my sis and I are both very frustrated with my mum.
this no, that no, and it's not even for valid reasons. it's just NO, i dont trust this person.
hello you don't even know the name of the person.
i've undertaken so many jobs without your consent/ knowledge.
i find it funny, how i do things illegally behind my mum's back, but it's not like illegal things you know, it's like things to help improve myself and serve the community. i mean i've honestly never done anything bad or illegal before.
like which mum says no you cant do an internship, no you cant do volunteer work, no you cant serve in church (she's christian), no you can't serve the school, no you can't try something new
like honestly.. which parent does that.
it's a bit odd right.

and because of this illogically minded person, i throw away the chance to chair a huge international convention and more?
and get all the exposure that i need and will never get again?
i mean its like saying no i don't want the experience of a lifetime.
i don't understand.
everything must be her way. like her way is always the right way.
or so she thinks.

haii i dont know la. and please don't use God's name in convenience.

there's this big rock in my heart again.
i don't know why she has to be so difficult.
why can't she be like my dad, whom i'm quite sure she looks down on.
he is rationally supportive. and i think he's a brilliant person, very smart and mature.
and freaking patient.

rgs girls, always think they're right.
i'm gonna be like that/ i am like that

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08 July 2009 @ 12:22 am

we love you friend,
and
through good times, through bad times
We'll be by your side forevermore
cos that's what friends are for
(:
we really love you,
more than anyone else in the world

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07 July 2009 @ 11:49 pm

things dont look good for CTs
oh well.

ada stop getting addicted to youtube.

i realized that my classmates are super important to me
:D
yay.

pern was damn funny during econs today
i actually think ms ng loves him the most haha.

and math was fun, sorry the rest of mrs tan's class
it's all grace's and zhengning's fault xD

RJCSB concert,
going with my classmates will be fun.

i love my class you know?
as in the people in it
not so much as an entire thing.

i want to shake up miley cyrus' the climb,
i have some good ideas,
i just need a singer haha

ada

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06 July 2009 @ 05:37 pm

hihi oh dear me too many people are misunderstanding

first paragraph: gkidz
second paragraph: DEFINITELY NOT ABOUT A GUY.
haha no i won't force myself to like (in that way) a guy.
why would I! haha.
it's about something else la. no no not a guy.

and if there was sth about a guy,
i wouldn't write it here.
hahahaha

quite funny actually.

ada

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05 July 2009 @ 10:33 pm

phew.
almost got caught.
i really don't know what to do.
i mean, it's an odd sitation to be in.
God, why am I in this situation?
Doing good sinfully. Doesn't make sense.
but yet it exists.
God you need to come through.

i just can't like you.
no matter how hard i try
to me, you're just
...
I'm trying, believe me.
Lord help.

I need another becoming beka.
Lord please send me another angel in a cover!

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05 July 2009 @ 12:49 am

a mention

for pernjie

xD

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04 July 2009 @ 08:56 pm

common tests are over.
yay
do I regret? Of course
am I motivated? Definitely.

Interesting things have been happening to me
definitely all God.

I still can't believe it.
Grace feels sleepy,
so I decide to walk to toapayoh to kill time.
then something keeps drawing me to toapayoh library,
Oh right, the internet's down, and wireless@SG is there
and i have to play the keyboard tonight
:S
so i go to the library, and i think to myself
it's stupid to take a seat and be messaging (or at least that's what it'll look like)
so I take some book.
and of all the books in the library, somehow,
I pick up a book with everything I really needed
'Becoming Beka'

Then I knew, God was in my life again (:

Of all the books in the library,
I read one about a christian girl,
struggling with trusting God about her future
struggling with standing up for God's/her values
struggling
(:

Thanks God.
and Daniel was right
only you could do such a thing.

God, were you pointing me to MICA today?
It's so different from what I've been wanting to do.
but I have the feeling you have something to do with it.
hmm.
and God, if this is where you want me to be,
give me a sign okay?

I give you full control
wherever you may lead I will follow
I have made the choice
to listen for your voice
wherever you may lead, I will go

and songwriting. where will that lead to?
tell me on hillsongs night okay?

Nothing you do                                                   will stop me from loving you
No matter how far you've gone astray            I'll run all the way
to bring you back
to give you everything I have
cos you were born to be                                  and you will always be
Daddy's little angel

Lord, I know when I am ready
you will give me the voice to sing for you
but that's when I'm ready (:
and Lord, I want to sing for you.
I really really do.

down to other things.
gkidz. hai that's a whole big whirl.
what I want to do VS God's direction...

God answers.
That I know very well.
He definitely answers.

Caught up with a lot of people tonight.
yay (:

some questions I need to ask though.
heh

but my life rocks

ada

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28 April 2009 @ 11:57 pm

personality tests are very accurate! haha
you shuld try doing, theyre really very good :D
and they always sugarcoat it, which makes me feel good!

invest and final night.
in 20+ days.
i dont think I'll cry during final night.
i think i'll be happy, as in like proud of my batch on final night.
i mean we've really come a long way.
and i'll miss us hardcoring together. from then on, we'll just be 94 individuals, no more 1 voice (no opportunity) and everyone's just gonna get so busy and stuff.
but the memories will live on :)

being ego but, i really like the new 28ths song.
It accurate encapsulates everything i think about our council journey (duh i wrote it),
but I'm just really happy i managed to put everything i would say about the 28th student council into lyrics understood by all :)

council really has a lot of awesome people
the 29ths have awesome people too.
in council, you appreciate the goodness of many other people, and you just feel so small and insignificant, which pushes you to do more so you can say you make a significant difference, you've beenelected for a purpose more than just to fill up the vote quota.

I LOVE YOU GUYS :)

ada

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20 April 2009 @ 11:12 pm

every time i think of you,
i just feel very blessed,
thank you for guiding this little girl along
i think you'll always be the person i look up to
from a distance, and like be very proud that the decisions we made were the best

YAY

ada

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20 April 2009 @ 09:58 pm

kae shall stop deserting my blog

20 things to celebreate:
1. I SURVIVED CTs
2. I SURVIVED the trouble i got into for ora
3. i’ve got super great friends ESPECIALLY my loyal blog readers:
zhengning:
haha here’s the portion dedicated to you
yes i owe you a lot of love xD actually right, i didn’t really think we would get close, cos other than psb we have about nothing in common. Im politically correct, you’re totally not. our areas of interest are pretty much totally different, your circle of friends hardly overlap with mine, aiya very different. BUT thank you for spicing my life up and making my days happy DDDDDDD and teaching me to be unboring. xD
yayyy im just very blessed to havea friend like you, really :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD zhengning is like flacainine :D :D

pernjie:
YOU ARE SMART fullstop. you are the most entertaining friend ever. im sorry i always bully you, never reply you and stuff. thank you for still being my friend :D hahaha. YAYYY the pernjie ada collboration has had 100% success rate xD woots. and one day im goign to win an argument against you. but meanwehil YOU ARE STILL SMARTER THAN ME :D you extremist xD

4. AWESOME 28ths. our term is ending but you guys really rock my world :D
and that's why i can write such relevant lyrics, cos you guys reallymean THAT MUCH to me.

5. MY NEW IPHONE. need i say more

6. GOLD AWARD FOR POSTER COMPETITION YESSSSSSS 2.5k :D

7. MY AWESOME AWESOME< MOST I COULD EVER WISH FOR buddies (both up and down and side), grand buddy, great grand buddy! and house buddy. just realized the awesomeness of them all on sunday (seorry so delayed). you guys really rock. yes council buddies really make a difference in council life.
i LOVE YOU KOVAN :D YOU ARE THE BESTEST EVER sorry i always dao you ><
and yuda! :DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDdd omg, can't believe i got such a cool buddy, really, and thank you for really opening up :) jiayou kae! i still find it quite fated that we sat with each other on the bus during match support xD

8. lynn, for never giving up on me though it's supposed to be the other way around

9. wingyee FOR SUBBING ME AT THE LAST MINUTE. thank you thank you thank you

10. MY A FOR PW, AND 100% A for my class. YESSSSSSSS! my pw group ROCKS EVEYRONE ELSE. it's really very heartwarming when your whole class gets A, really. and i felt happy for my class more than myself :)

11. small thing but: GOLD FOR NAPFA hahah.

12. I SURVIVED THE AUSTRALIAN SHOW. definitely an eyeopening experience.

13. i really tightened the 28ths song, got valuable input and made it, i think, encompass everything, yet still made sure it was raw and relevant (ie not sugar coated). i hope! thanks people who gave positive feedback, it's very encouraging when people tell you that your song really touched them :) and CHLOE'S AWESOME TUNE. seriously, you make the song work, stop saying it's just the lyrics! thank you God for such a gift

14. my newfound passion to STUDY. gosh i need to study

15. FRIENDS, as in the show, it really carries me through my super tiring days.

16. i have friends in h3, ziyao and pingfang :DDDD haha we blur together, but yall so much smarter than me ><

17. american idol. ANOOP! i think i'll just laugh if anoop and lil get eliminated, it'll seem so racist! the only Asian (coincidentally Indian) and the only Black left.

18. the chance to serve at gkidz, great way to spend sundays. :)

19. I SURVIVED COUNCIL CAMP. HAHAHHAHAHAH and i got to shout :D fun xD

20. GOD. what can i say.

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20 April 2009 @ 09:44 pm

revived. hhaa

manythings have been going on :D
NYF for one, not sure how that's going to work out, with a little luck and lots of hard work, we'll get our prototype out:)
went to meet the president today. HE IS THE COOLEST GUY EVER
i love him, and he autographed our picture, yayyyyyyy! :D

RU IS APPROVED :D:D:D

and i just got back from japan, which was my best holiday ever (my sis agrees)
hurt my toe pretty badlyin bintan by stepping on a rock in the middle of the sea, though technically it wasn't my fault he wave pushed me to the rock. but oh whatever, it's still me with the gross deep cuts.

i've been drifting away from God. think i shall go back to son

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06 October 2008 @ 08:48 pm

there are people who will dampen your spirit, aka my mum,
but i will not let these obstacles get in the way.

CHINESE! MAD haha 51/60 for zuo4wen2 and i got a d7 for higher chinese
HAHA MAD.
but yayy i got an A overall so i am happy :D (with luck i'll get into dean's list.. haahahaha that will be the joke of the day)
but ultimately it's the As that count la, so hopefully i'll do as well too.
but this one is REALLY God's grace.
i need to study hard.
but it's really quite amazing that i did well, especially on such a significant day. Today was prayer walk day

I almost broke down during the sharing session.
It's so amazing how SO MANY people have been wanting revival for the school.
thsi prayer walk was not done by me, God just answered my prayer of being used by Him and this prayer walk came from everyone's prayers and God really hearing them
and ah this is the first time, since coming to RJ, i really feel that there is love in this community, and there is something else that we care about other than grades and material success

thank God for david and chloe for helping man

and to all who cameeeeeee! God really did something today

TO GOD BE THE GLORY!

ada

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04 October 2008 @ 08:50 pm

GOD IS AWESOME
i'm really happy that over the past few years my walk with God has really gone deep/
SALLY YOU ARE THE GREATEST CELL LEADER ANYONE COULD EVERY WISH FOR
because you love me and you want the best for me.
just like God and my parents.

that's all anyone can ask for. it doesn't matter sometimes the time pspent together is not ideal, thata re things that are neglected because you don't do it on purpose. and it's not like you lose interst in our lives or anything. hai.

why is God awesome?
Hes the only one who will allow me to lead an abundant life
and abundant life is one that is worry free, and you dont want anything else because you're overflowing with everything you need.
and God has done that.
if you surrender your whole to God, there's realy nothing to worry about.
from grades to friends to zn's bdae to council to waseda-nyf to prayer walk to many things that have happened this year
i've been leading the abundant life.
when you live a life with God,you are so much happier. but before that you must surrender everything to God la, if not no use.

i look at christians in my life i've seen drift away, and i just sigh and pray hard that one day the Holy Spirit will fall on them.
and of course that i will have the courage to help.
it's really sad because they are christians i look up to and are inspired by, but one by one... *not talking about anyone in cell!*

anyway my life rocks.
not because i'm in rjc (it doesnt make much of a diff)
not because i have the greatest cell leader
not because i have the greatest family
not because i have the most caring friends i could ask for
not because i'm in council
but solely because all my needs have been met. and that's solely because of G O D

yeah. im not being preachy. i'm just being factual.
this is my life.
my life rocks.
my life is God's

Ada

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01 October 2008 @ 12:03 am

Today was complicated.
priorities priorities priorities.

PRAYER WALK. GOD THANK YOU.

i usually have alot of thingsi want to blog, but everytime i start blogging i cant remember anything :(

anyways PALIN IS QUITE DUMB omg sheesh
she's as dumb as bush just that bush laughs at himself, palin thinks she's talking sense.
im beginning to like bush
tina fey rocks my socks!

AND OBAMA IS SUPER COOL!!!!!!!!!!!!and michelle obama is cool too!

my computer battery runs out (ie from fully charged to low batt) in TWENTY THREE MINUTES
what rubbish!

ada

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27 September 2008 @ 08:45 pm

long time since i've blogged!

PROMOS ARE OVERRR except chinese but who cares. xD
thank you Lord for bringing me thorugh :D
your favor really really was with me!

today went for sol on courtship haha.
not bad.. gave us some new insights.
i love fcbc cos though we're SUPER conservative, it's really for our own good.
and from like the people i met today, i realized that being brought up in this environment really helps people stay stable

i realized why sally did the things she did, and reacted in those ways.

sally rocks. <3

charissa's in uk now :(
tmr will be my first day without char, bahh!

anyway! I WON A FREE IPOD SHUFFLE WOOTS. ain't i lucky xD

may we all get promoted

<3ada

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20 September 2008 @ 12:20 am

AH I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
you really really really really rock
thank you for everything that you've done since so long ago
i really really appreciate it
and i am honoured, more than anything else.
i owe you alot friend!

my promos are two days away
sigh. ADA WAKE UP YOUR IDEA haha. that sounds super singaporean.

life these few days have been full of ups and downs.
promos, nyf, various issues: self discipline, God, trust, opening up, letting go

hai ada stop stop stop stpo stpo doing irrelevant things you are pissing me off

ada

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16 September 2008 @ 10:50 pm

my gosh ryan and i are laughing our heads off.
how unlucky could we get!
but i guess for me it was God, i mean only God could pull off a thing like that.
i am amused.

MATH IS OVER WOOTS
wah i was so relieved.
i hope the standard for this promos is the same as last year's paper!
i'm super relieved, and very surprised. i think it's cos of me not ponning lecture, and God honoring it. thank you God.

kae i shall do the last 40 minutes of math and see how many more marks i can get.
but im SUPER relieved.

CHEM TMR. GGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGg

and today was a happy day, somehow.

ada

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